Birthday wishes

I remember birthdays being so much more magical then what they have been the last few years.  When you're little everyone is so excited to wish you a happy birthday and give you lots of gifts right??? Well it totally isn't like that when you get older. Anymore its like people are more annoyed that they have to wish you a happy birthday or feel obligated to wish you a happy birthday for fear of maybe hurting your feelings.. That is the impression that I have felt the last few years and I must say, I am very disappointed with it.  I for one love birthdays, its the only day out of the year that is solely all about you! You don't have to share gift giving, you have a whole song sang to just you, and "its my party and I'll cry if I want to!". 
  The last 3 years of birthdays for me have actually been pretty enjoyable.  The first was my 21st so really that one should be self explanatory, last year was my 22 and Sky bought me a bike (best boyfriend ever)!!! And this year it was just a mellow normal day.  I of course had to go to work because even though it was a day all about me I couldn't have that mentality unfortunately.  After work I went to school and got to leave early so my whole day wasn't just spent being a "responsible adult".  Skyler and I went out to a little Thai restaurant for some dinner and just relaxed the rest of the evening. 
    I wished that even though you get older you can still have as much fun with your birthdays as you did when you were little.  I mean, when you're a little kid you can ditch school and have these awesome themed parties and fun sleepovers with games and a bunch of shitty food to eat all night. When you're young all you wish for is that you want to be older and then when you get older all you want to do is get younger.  Unfortunately only one of these things really does happen.  I am looking forward to getting older though.  I see it as, when I am older I will have my life set up and can just enjoy things.  Not to say that I don't enjoy things now but when your older life just seems to be more "real".  
  As the years go on my birthday wishes have definitely gone down to really nothing.  I am more just about being with the people that I care about and love and just wanting to spend time with them rather than having people spend money on me for things I have wished for.  I have a bad habit of not telling people what I want because I really don't like when people spend money on me for things that I probably really don't need just want, when I know that they could be spending it on themselves for things that they need or want. I don't know where this whole thing came from but it really gets to me! its like having buyers remorse only I think I would call it "birthday gift remorse". 
  I guess I just need to accept the fact that as I get older things change and people change too. For now that's how it is and that THIS IS MY LIFE TAKE IT OR LEAVE IT
C.L.